#can u tell that im yearning 😭😭😭

[littlest-nightingale]

Crowley has tantrums, every once and a while. Emotions get too big and he just feels like screaming and kicking and biting, so he does. Aziraphale isn't happy about this of course, but he isn't angry at Crowley in the slightest. They're working on some things, and there's only so much they can do to prevent these outbursts. He tries his best to calm him down and minimize the damage (both to their property and to Crowley) but he never yells at him. When it's all over, he's there to hold him and wipe away his tears and tell him that he's not a bad little, he's just working through some things and that's okay.

Aziraphale has meltdowns. A texture will be too much, or a smell too strong or the lights too bright, an emotion will be too hard to communicate and he'll get upset. He stims in harmful ways and he cries and sometimes he yells, and if he does yell it leads to him incoherently begging for forgiveness. (Force of habit) Crowley tries his best, but there's only so much he can do, so he provides Aziraphale with the tools and environment needed to calm down and hopes he can ride it out, and when Aziraphale's feeling a bit better he's there with all the comfort his angel could ever need, a nice warm bottle if he wants it, and reassurance that Aziraphale will never ever be a burden for his meltdowns.

[rucow]

*shrivels up and cowers in a corner knowing that im probably the only one who thinks it makes much more sense for the phantom to NOT be able to sing professionally than it does for her to be able to hit every note perfectly and have perfect breath control etc etc*

*claws at the walls thinking that i might be the only one who thinks it adds SO much more depth to the story and to the phantom's character if she truly was unable to sing her own music (both because she can't be on stage herself for obvious reasons, and because her deep voice doesnt fit the conventional "higher pitched pretty girl" voice type that the public wants to hear), thus needing christine to sing it for her*

[patchiko]

Ur writing makes me emotional im literally writhing on the floor jason let me take care of u bbg 😭 can u write smth ab him letting his s/o take care of him after a rough patrol? Can be sfw or nsfw

HEHEHEHE THANK YOU ANON!! I GOTT YOUUU

im so proud of this it took long but im literally writing this at 3:49 AM bc of the idea that popped up in my half asleep brain

Taking care of ak!Jason Todd after patrol!! (SFW FLUFFY FIC)

Night after night, Jason Todd would come home to you. Sometimes bloodied and bruised, sometimes frustrated and annoyed, sometimes his feet were dragging and his whole body ached. Tonight he slipped through your apartment window, smooth jazz played so lightly it took him a second to register it. A light in the dining room was on. He could’ve just showered to let the running water tell you he was home, and be greeted with your presence when he came out. But, tonight his eyelids were heavy and his body felt empty. Like a lost ghost, he longed for something that gave him a peace to rest his lamenting spirit. Jason wandered to you, it was second nature at times, he found you sitting at the dinner table working on your laptop.

Your gaze flicked upwards, the red of his helmet catching your eyes. “Welcome back!” You said warmly. Almost in an instant his body felt full, heavy, like he was about to melt into a puddle right then and there.

“Hey.” The helmets voice scrambler hid Jason’s mellowed tone. Slightly frowning underneath it because of its harsh manner, he promptly took it off. After sliding the cold metal off his head, his eyes met yours. You were smiling tenderly at him. Jason drifted toward you, when he got close he felt like his whole body would’ve dropped to your feet and he could in a dormant rest for centuries. As long as you stayed there of course. Hardly noticed how close he stood over you until he felt himself moving down to kiss your cheek. Jason stopped himself, “Can I?” he whispered to you feebly. You nodded to him with that warm smile he longed for desperately. Jason pressed his cold lips to your cheekbone, the sensation of your skin soothed that longing feeling. He pressed another one firmly, helplessly trying to quarrels his yearning soul. Jason caught himself, skin flushed as he dragged himself away.

A sigh escaped his lips and he started turning away,” Would you like one too?” He fixated himself back on you, you were still looking at him lovingly, your finger pressed against your lips, waiting for his response.

Wordlessly he bowed his head back toward you, turning his head for you to kiss his unbranded cheek. Jason wasn’t ready for you to touch that side of him so directly. He didn’t want you to meet the oily black hate, the only other thing that touched his heart, his longing, his ache as comfortingly as you did. The discomfort seeped from him when he felt your plush lips meet his skin, it wasn’t quick, not too long either. In Jason’s mind it was perfection, it made that tar that stuck in his veins seem like a pathetic substitute. It made his breath heavy, all but burdened with a swollen heart. It made him feel untouchable, not in his brutal norm but in a heavenly stillness. It made him scared. That you could take care of him, not just when his body bled but when you filled something enigmatically empty inside him. Something that he could only fill with that hate that he clutched onto like a boy to his mother.

Jason lugged himself away from you. He wasn’t sure what would hurt him more and he wasn’t ready to find out. He sat across from you pressing his callous palms against his face.

“Bad night?”

“Mhm. Something like that.”

“Need anything?” He already got it.

“No.”

He would be lying if he were to say he wouldn’t wish to a star like a child, asking for your ease indefinitely.

i love him☹️

[therealslimshakespeare]

IM SORRY DID U SAY YOURE WORKING ON A FIC ABOUT “COP BIG DADDY ELVIS”?!?- please tell us more because this sounds like the greatest thing ever 😭

I did, Mon ami, I did indeed…welcome to the demented 2009, sweaty and non famous cop AU that @eliseinmemphis and myself cooked up in our feral yearnings one night.

Edit: it’s here

Allow me to lay a bit of the setting for us all, and maybe even throw in a few lines from the draft below.

Life is insular when you’ve been born and raised in a trailer park. A little El Paso suburb was never a thriving metropolis, what with its gas stations and dollar stores on the way to nothingness in the desert, but the recession didn’t help none. Your dreams of buying a car that might actually make it above 120 mph and not guzzle your wages in gas is a far off dream when you learn from officer Presley that your entrepreneuring father has been incarnated for racketeering across in Juarez. It’s a shame, a damn shame but it hardly throws a wrench in your life, you were already used to making it however you could. When workin’ at the trucker’s club turns into something a lil more illegal and Elvis has his morning waffle ruined by Joe Esposito yacking about the powers of your pink tongue…he feels a little responsible for leaving you without a father figure. He’s got top notch swamp coolers in his trailer, plenty of food and tiger figurines out front -and he’s got an interest in fast things, just like you.

You could do worse than shack up with such a fella; not that he’s offerin’ but you can tell by the flicker in his eye and the smirk of his lips that he’s as susceptible as the next guy watching you on the pole. Except this sweet, world weary cynic just might screw your gooey insides up worse than any threat or ogle from another man.

Snippet:

“Well, well officer Presley, finally got persnickety about laws, have ya?” you observed to yourself with a grin as you watched the handsome man swagger towards you along the white line in your side mirror, tugging at his pants as he neared, trying to shimmy the article of clothing a little higher but is impeded by his belt, stopped by his sizable belly, his holster and buckle sitting under the bulge of it.

Your mouth watered. It had been a year or two since you saw him last. He was always built, intimidating to all the stupid rascals he keeps in line along the border, but now he had become outright fat and his khaki shirt pulled apart between each button. Yet when he came up to your window, that little boy grin was still gracing one of the most exquisite faces known to man, and his voice was tender and playful when he greeted you, just as you once recalled. You could see his sweaty hair, matted on his chest and belly between the gaps, his underarms had massive pit stains, doubly apparent thanks to the light color of his police uniform.

Your smile had something of the she-wolf in it as you greeted him, sniffing the air in hopes of catching a whiff as he leaned on your window frame, nearly crowding you from outside. “Hey Miss Sweet Cheeks,” he greets, “you know why ya been pulled over?”

“Haven't got a clue, officer.” You stated the truth and enjoyed the way his title rolled off your tongue in a bantering way. It was easy.

Officer, officer. Somebody important and authoritative. No sir, yes sir, Officer.

His left eyebrow quirked and you wondered what he looked like at twenty five, how devastating that expression would have been before his wound and his meds and the water retention. Whatever power it may have once held, it holds nothing to this slightly bemused, slightly cynical world weariness that shows in his every expression now, that had a twitch of an eyebrow making you feel a fool. “You’re goin’ seventy in a forty five, Miss.” his tone was patient even as his face suggested he’d like to tan your hide for being so reckless. “Reckless endangerment of others, and yourself,” he quoted sternly, “it ain’t no small matter and I don’t countenance it on my highway.”

Gosh, you just loved it when he laid claim to government property like highways and interstates. It helped you smile meekly at him and nod.

“Sorry officer, I got lax.” You purred, batting your eyes and you could see the heavy flap of their coal coated weight in your periphery. “I’ve seen you lettin’ me flyby on the interstate. I guess I thought…”

[osarina]

CARINA CARINA CARINA its like nearly midnight right now and i jsut finished reading uu4 and omg 😭 i love it so so much. i alr knew i would love it but i just loved it even more just reading it. i love how we are slowly piecing together dazai and what he does or something among the lines and dazais nervousness. i just fall more and more in love with beastzai and how much he just cares for us, his concern his anxiety about everything relating to us.

THE ANKLE KISS IM WEAK FOR THAT 😭

THE CLIFFHANGER TOO I CANT I CANT. GO SWAY FYDOOR YOURE RUINING THE HAPPINESS 💔💔 he’s making me scared for what’s going to come or what’s going to happen because HE is a big threat especially with the way you worded it. dazai come back pls 🙏�� chuuya come back 🙏🏻 tachihara hurry up your ass and get down there

im just waiting for you to break our hearts with angst for UU 😔 i’m trying to prepare myself but i don’t think i can prepare for carina writing dazai angst because you KILL me with angst <//33 i am looking forward to UU6 but also not because the dazai series will be over :(( and this has been one of my favourite series ever (ATU by mai is one of mine too 🤭🤭) IDJDJSJ im just going to be delusional and say that dazai and reader are happy married with kids and grow old and die like they did in the notebook NO SADNESS NO BROKEN HEARTS

the way you write has me so so entrapped and i love love your writing so so much. if you were to write your own story i would read it i love your writing that much. i know that you would make a great author if you ever were to become one. or if you ever make your own story and publish it here 👀👀

ALSO WJFJSJS IM SORRY IF I WROTE TOO MUCH

LARRRRR MY LOVE U COULD NEVER WRITE TOO MUCH IM SORRY THAT IT TOOK ME EONS TO ANSWER YOUR ASK I FEEL SO BAD (╥﹏╥)

AHFUSFHUDIUSHDDSHU no joke the scene in uu4 where he was helping us get dressed & telling him all the reasons why he wants us was my FAVVVV to write between uu AND badlands. like i literally could not write it in one sitting cuz i was yearning so hard for him LOLLLL i kept having to stop and sigh and pout because what have i done in life to not deserve dazai osamu </333 truly unfair

no because fyodor is truly a pain in the ass in the waterloo universe this man has it OUT for dazai and reader in EVERY universe like why r u so bitter my man do u truly hate love so much </3333 JKKKK LOLLLL but honestly no man haunts beastzai more than fyodor LOLL like yes fyodor is not the ONLY cause of our death but like 80% of the time it's him, the other 20% being christie

the angst is coming i promise ;) HAHHAHHH no but for real it is. HAHHA i'm rlly excited for uu6 but it's going to be a tough one to write, i'm hoping to have it done within two weeks now that finals are over but it depends on how easily the scenes come to me because there's gonna be at LEAST three really tough scenes to put into words and im already getting a bit antsy over them and im not even at them yet </3

NO STOP THIS IS THE BIGGEST COMPLIMENT EVER ACTUALLY IM WEEPING honestly i've always wanted to write something of my own but i never have the time for it </3 plus i always get in my head about it too LOLLL but lar i adore u thank you for making my day im sorry this took me forever to reply to

[ofmermaidstories]

im sorry im sorry im sorry i had to do it ive been thinking about them too muchhh petey poo and izuku on the mind!!!! i think it would be rlly funny if his quirk was like that one meme btw where its like he has super minor prophetic tendencies but only thru telling jokes like the meme!! the little apollo throwing a dodgeball at some unsuspecting dude tryna make a joke and its The Gift Of Prophecy. anyway he just says stupid stuff for gaffs and giggles and sometimes it comes true 😭 is smoking a little weed with his friends and theyre like oh no the cops!! and pete is like we can run from the cops its fiiinneee but can you imagine if it was like Deku or someone equally insane LMFAO like obama and then deku is rounding the corner like are yew thewiothly thmoking cannabis marijuana rn 💀🤓 and pete is like NOOOOOOOOO WHY COULDNT IT HAVE BEEN OBAMAAA just stupid things anyway im sorry. Im sorry theyre on the mind

ok first lesson junie: NEVER apologise ‼️ i’m laughing but also like, i’m so serious junie, the moment you mentioned them i have SEEN THE VISION ‼️ just the self-depreciating humour and self-destruction that you could layer a (forgive me pete 💀) character like petey with…. and how that could reflect in the Quirk, when that power’s unwittingly turned back around on himself and Deku and whatever burgeoning thing they have. 😩 the ULTIMATE form of pushing away!!!! and GOD pete… heartbreaking klsdjhflksdjf. at least in this AU LOL. u made your thing funny and then i was like, ok but what if we made it sad. 💀 IM SORRY JUNIEEE. in my defence!!! i blame ur mixtape you made. 😌 the vibes are THERE and i’ve had it playing since you sent this ask. 🥺 the yearning under the jokes and the anger…. junie!!! banger of a mix, yet again. 😩 you keep proving me right when i say you have great taste!!!!!!!! as u should, bc im always right. 😌✨ but seriously. i’m like, more than here for this deku/pete ship. can you imagine how suspicious the gang would be of pete. 😭 BAKUGOU? i think shouto should be in his corner though, eventually. 😌 and denki. 🥹

[forlix]

talking ab fallen star cos that fic consumed me when i first read it and consumed me again when i reread it earlier 🤚

firstly the way he kept his promise to bring mc to the airport it really broke me. it's so melancholic like there have been broken promises before but hyunjin wouldn't dare end their relationship on another one? you can still feel the love he has for t hemin the way he tiredly made his way to drive to their house and to the airport after he came back from his own long flight it honestly makes me insane.

i love how in the car there's this like faint and twisted idea of hope lingering between them. some part of them still longs for the other and it's right there they could just grab the very thing they yearn for but it's incomplete. it's not the same. honestly when mc mutters "idiot" it really made me think like are they calling hyunjin an idiot? or themselves an idiot? and ac i feel like they meant both of them are idiots for allowing themselves to end up in this awkward but necessary situation.

there are some unresolved feelings and unanswered questions while they sit in silence on the way to the airport, but the airport scene™️ gives them both the closure they need. they're not getting back together, no matter how much one might like, but the tension in the car shows a sliver of hope that they would and i feel like it really emanates in your writing and makes me as a reader reader hope for a happier ending as well. also the shaky "fuck" describes my feelings as i read this as well thanks btw 🥲

and this is all from my own mind but i imagine reader saw a photo or maybe got an invitation to hyun's wedding and they realize he's okay and it makes them reflect on themselves and with a heavy heart they realize theyre okay too. the worst part is there's no definitive point where they felt or "became" okay, because like you said, time is the best medicine and gradually mc just healed. but knowing that hyun is okay and has moved on kind of popped a bubble of reserved feelings and its not necessarily sad its just kind of disheartening or numbing?

idk how i started yapping sm lol i read wayyyy into this HAHAHA. i chose to analyze this instead of study for my finals ☝️🤓 but in conclusion, xian i love falling star and its yet another product of ur mindblowing sexy brain i love you so much bby and i js wanna say im so proud of you <3

when i tell u i saw this while studying (also for my finals) and it had my jaw on the floor my head in the clouds i couldn't focus for the LIFE of me afterwards. WDYM YOU WROTE ME AN ESSAY OF UR THOUGHTS ON MY WRITING? IS IT MY BIRTHDAY?? i love you so fucking much omg. thank u for sending this in my lovely star :') putting my VERY ramble-y response under the cut

"there have been broken promises before but hyunjin wouldn't dare end their relationship on another one" is soooo poignantly put and so so so correct. honestly him remembering the day and time of the flight was supposed to be a show of pettiness at first, like "you called me unreliable so here i am bitch" lmfaooo but let's be real you're right on the money with his real intentions. he was literally counting down the days until he had an excuse to see mc again.. he was also worried about the flight being so early and wanted to ensure their safety... AGGHHH not me hurting myself thinking ab this couple 😭

"when mc mutters "idiot" it really made me think like are they calling hyunjin an idiot? or themselves an idiot?" I LOVEEEE LOVE LOVE THIS? god u are a genius i adore you. i totally see this being the case. if i may add, maybe mc thinks they're an idiot because they reciprocate hyunjin's yearning even after everything that's transpired. like inward frustration that there are still feelings there? yeah. ur a genius.

about the slivers of hope after the car scene, i apologize for the lack of a happy ending love </3 the fic was definitely challenging (and saddening) but also refreshing to write. i really wanted to explore a couple that is well and truly doomed bc some of the relationships in our lives are doomed, yaknow? and you can recognize that and still have a lot of love for the person at the same time bc human beings are fucking complicated like that. but please consider this my official justification for posting something so depressing

"and this is all from my own mind but i imagine reader saw a photo or maybe got an invitation to hyun's wedding and they realize he's okay and it makes them reflect on themselves and with a heavy heart they realize theyre okay too." FUCKKKK NOT THE WEDDING PICTURE. this just made me frown irl. if i may add.....again..... what if they physically run into each other and that's how mc knows? at the start of the convo mc kinda feels the familiar stirrings again but it's more out of habit than anything. they talk for a bit and it's really pleasant and mc notices he has a ring on his finger and they realize they feel ✨ nothing ✨ about it anymore. but there's just an inkling of remorse remaining about the whole situation. like a passing thought of "maybe in a different universe we would've made things work"....haha.....fuck. BUT mc is happy hyunjin's happy, and mc is happy to have recovered, and life goes on

as for ur entire last paragraph i might actually cry, i'm so glad you love the fic and i truly do appreciate u taking the time to look into my fic this closely so so so much :'( you keep me going, I MEAN IT

[pearlzier]

oh em gee so small rant cus nobody listens to me you dont understand how bad i hate my substitute english teacher (for context i live in a non-english speaking country) AND MY ENGLISH IS A CRACKHEAD EVERYONE IN MY CLASS AGREES. he licks his lips continously, hes probably 60+ years old cus hes balding, he cant hear and doesnt understand what yearn or bunny means and cant even speak english and ISNT EVEN GOOD AT GRAMMAR. he also ignored me last friday when my leg felt like it was about to fall off and i wanted to tell him (cause you gotta notify your teacher when smth hurts or ur ill so u can call ur parents cus ur not allowed to use ur phone at my school) SAVE ME BEFORE I LOSE MY MIND BECAUSE I HAVE A TEST TMRW IN HIS CLASS AND I KNOW HE'LL PROBABLY FAIL ME. this all would only be acceptable if it was soldierboy as my teacher cus it lowkey seems like something he would do except the not speaking english part but everything else would be him.. but jensen ackles edits are probably the only thing keeping me from going insane (and your bots and soldier boy glasses fanfic cus i wear glasses on a daily and recently began to wonder if i should wear contacts cus i started to hate them but now i feel like a part of your amazing soldierboy fanfic is part of me🙏) please keep me in your prayers 💔

ILL ALWAYS LISTEN MLL

STOP SUBSITUTE ENGLISH TEACHERS ARE ALWAYS LITERAL SHIT THEY CANT FUCKING TEACH 😭😭 IM SO SORRY RAAAGH i hope he doesnt fail u because the fuck ?? hes NOT okay wtf

IM CRYING UR RIGHT soldier boy would literally be exactly like that hed be useless i SWEAAAR

OF COURSE BAE so real of u if i ever feel weird abt wearin glasses i just think soldier boy would love em so </3 KEEPING U IN MY PRAYERS FRFR

[svnflowermoon]

hi

remember the anon from a few weeks ago who asked for advice about a girl called M? an anon with the emoji 🫀? well idk if u have already guessed but that was me

i told M that i like her and that if she didnt like me back she must tell the truth and she said ‘thats the thing, i dont know how i feel about you’ and then i told her i would wait

now i dont know what to do except wait, and like i can do that but like im just scared and we’ve been thru so much shit over the years between us and i feel like M probably doesnt like me the same way and thats why she said she doesnt know as in i dont completely know if i dont like you…..

like we used to be best friends and then we werent and like she smiles at me and ive heard that she wants a girlfriend, but i’ve also heard she likes this other girl who is super pretty like M and like im not that pretty and what if she is holding a grudge against the stuff i said last year to her???

like ive been depressed and sad and cried so much over her before, and missed her so much, and ive felt the whole spectrum of emotions over her, and i really care about her and i worry about her and i love her but what if she’s never felt like that towards me??? what if what she felt about me was a silly crush she had for like two months?

what if she leaves me waiting for months or years and then tells me and then ive spent my whole high school loving her and she didnt?? then what?

oh my god im ranted so much im so so so sorry you had to read all of that but i really needed to tell someone who would understand?? cos like non of of my friends have experienced desperate lesbian yearning and its like so hard cos they like guys and i dont

i just like her so much and i dont know what to do if she doesnt like me

again im so so sorry

omg hi!! i'm gonna be honest i'm oblivious so i hadn't figured out that it was you 😭😭

oh my god that's such an awkward situation like there's really nothing you can do except wait for her omg

i hope she likes you back omg, also about the whole thing abt the other girl, there's a chance she just has a flirty personality and has trouble figuring out who she likes fr bc she flirts so often?? idk i wouldn't know i can't flirt for the life of me. (also i'm sure you're gorgeous don't put yourself down like that angel <333)

considering you're feeling so strongly about the whole thing, i'd recommend making sure you spend time with your friends. try not to isolate yourself, just because you're waiting for her doesn't mean you have to put your whole life on pause. genuinely like spending time with friends will boost your mood sm, it won't fix it entirely but it will help you remember that you have other people in your life that are there for you <33

if she leaves you waiting for ages and then tells you that, then honestly she's an asshole 😭 if she didn't feel at least SOMETHING for you, she would probably want to let you know as soon as she could to save you too much hurt. ofc idk cause idk her irl but personally when i don't like someone i want to break that to them as soon as i can. so i think she probably likes you, it might not be as much as she did before or as much as you like her but i bet she likes you

don't feel bad for ranting omg never feel bad for ranting it's okay <333 the desperate lesbian thing is so real lmao i totally get you, please feel free to update me on whatever happens <33

[hayakawalove]

EEE my soul yearns for a fic full of being babied by sugoogoo -w- he’d be such a little weirdo about it too he gets sooo into being ur mommy mhm yep -w-no brain when around him just let him think for me -w-

ive also been good!! grinding at work and smoking oui’d all summer waiting for class to start SIGHHH. i must share my brainrot w u i hope all is well and ur getting plenty of rest 🥺 dont eat a fuckton of candy late like me HEHE sugoogoo’s lecturing me rn w floss in hand 😭 should i start crying

ITS SUCH A GOOD IDEA. I might write it someday. I’ve had the idea before of him helping you during a mental health moment but it feels almost little personal to post. I just feel like I’d have to write it a specific way. I just. You need to capture his full mommyness in those situations. I think I’d have to work real hard on it. HES SO NOT NORMAL ABOUT IT. Not necessarily in the sexual way although. That too. I just think he feels fulfilled helping you. Seeing you smile truly fucks him up it makes him so ecstatic. He’d do everything for you if he could. And I think he doesn’t even think about it. It’s like breathing to him. Of course he would care for you. It’s what he was born to do.

Starts the day by kissing your face to wake you up, you look so cute when you’re dreaming but he knows you need to eat. Lets you trail after him as he cooks your breakfast. He’d prefer to feed it to you but he’ll let you feed yourself. Has you curled up next to him while you guys read. He’d love showering your body for you. It’s really special for him. Makes you a warm cup of tea at night and looks lovingly at you as you drink it. Keeps you tucked in his arms all night. He’d probably make all the decisions too. Not that. He thinks you can’t make them. I just think he thinks he knows best. Suguru has your best interest at heart because of course he does. He wants you to rely on him so he can assist you. He’s kind of. Sick that way KDJDKKDKFKDJ you’re like suguru I wanna eat this for dinner :)) and he’s like hmmm baby what about this other thing that is similar but more healthy. Babies you until you sort of give in because it’s nice when he takes over.

IM PROUD OF YOU that’s not easy! I LOVE BRAIN ROT PLEASE SHARE AS MUCH OF IT AS YOU CAN. I am getting rest! Im feeling myself slowly start to rejuvenate with writing…. THIS IS AWKWARD CAUSE. I just ate like a lot of chocolate hhhhh dont tell him? NDNDJDNJFJD

[01zfan]

Okay so I’m the anon who wrote that diabolically down bad ask about Sohee (I’d do it again) and OMGGKFDKNDFNDMSK You’re literally my favorite Riize author on here so like the combo of u saying that I should write for Sohee and u saying that u kept coming back to my ask while writing his sacrilegious fic has giggling and kicking my feet omg?? Like stoppppp I’m literally blushing and twirling my hair rn omg…

And to be honest sometimes when I send asks to blogs abt Sohee in my brain I’m like “bitch if u don’t just post this long ass shit LMFAOOO💀” but alas I am too shy and also idk how to tell stories fr I just know how to yap and yearn for Sohee. He just makes me really crazy sometimes and I need to tell someone or I would probably die? Idk if I’d be a good writer tho truly 😭😭 I really respect u and other authors on here’s clear passion for writing but idk if I’m built for that 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but I’ll keep it in mind‼️🫡 and if I ever do make a blog fr I’ll let u know ur so sweet for saying all of that like WAHHHHHHHH😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I hope u have a nice day/night 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

omg my inbox is always welcome to thoughts about your biases! you should try writing just once just to try it the best part abt tumblr is the anonymity that comes with it! if you ever write it please lmk so i can support >< and thank you so much for saying im your favorite riize writer omfg youre making me feel so special

[n3ssier]

Hi! I just read your other works and their super good :o

I know that you have written about these so sry if ur tired of them. But can I request a kapkan and echo x female reader where they have a crush on her? And they not really confess but like kind of a "youre really cool" in their own language and super quietly, but jokes on them, reader speaks their native toungue, and begins flirting with them and they just turn into a tomato. Tysm!!

SORRY I TOOK LIKE 3 WEEKS TO RESPOND NGL I FORGOT I HAD REQUESTS😭😭🫶🫶 I HOPE YA LIKE IT, IM USING GOOGLE TRANSLATE SO THIS ISNT GONNA BE GREAT, also, requests are open again!! reblogs VERY appreciated, like i’ll give u a smooch fr fr

echo

much to your dismay, you and masaru's bond had been nothing more than a close friendship ever since the first mission you two had went on together, you spent time in the workshop, going out to small cafes near the base, and sharing your opinions which you felt were too blunt for the rest of rainbow together.

it was great and all, but you couldn't help but yearn to hold his hand when you two were headed anywhere, or to rest your head on his on the trip to your next missions. masaru being the lowkey inexpressive guy he is, he was giving you major mixed signals and you spent your nights stressing over what to do over this childish crush.

the clock read 22:17 and you were spending your night with masaru in the workshop, working on your gadgets together after a tiring mission.

his gun lay on the left side of the table while he attempted to fix a problem in his gadgets. you had finished everything you needed to do by now, and were just waiting on him to finish. you study his concentrated face as strands of his dark, nearly black hair fall forward and cover his forehead. boredom sinking in, you then tilt your head and take a look at your surroundings, shelves, saws, worn down work desks, and to your surprise, a little dumpling charm on your friends gun.

"awww, i never knew you had this on your gun" you chirped as your heart melts at the small addition to his equipment "it's so cute!!!" this causes masaru to turn his head over and see what on earth youre freaking out over, before turning back to his work and muttering something so hushed that you nearly miss it; “あなたも、あなたが知っている”😮. (you too, you know)

without really thinking, a response in the same language slips from your mouth; “なぜありがとう、私はあなたについて同じことが言えます” (why thank you, i could say the same about you) 🤭 masaru’s head snaps over to look at you, as you smile at him, not realising that he never thought you would understand. you admired him, feeling fuzzy as he stammered a “uhh n- no problem, never knew you spoke japanese.” awkward for him, but a dream come true for you!

kapkan

maxim isn't very talkative, he doesn't really see the point in chitchat, and he doesn't wanna make himself vulnerable in that way if ya get what i mean, and you know this, yet still put in the effort and managed to befriend him. it was difficult, of course, but it was worth it in the end when you got to uncover the sweet man he really is.

he could be cold, but you knew he never meant it, and you could always tell when he was secretly enjoying the supposedly 'annoying' rants you have would have with him on late nights after a mission in an attempt to converse with the russian man.

fast forwarding a wee bit, the cold and hard seat welcomed you inside of the helicopter. it was a fairly easy mission you had just been on and only 2 operators were needed so you and kapkan had went together. it was now time for the journey back to the base.

you knew maxim was tired, but you wanted to help him destress and loosen him up from the recent action he partook in.

"hey, can you believe the alexsandr (tachanka) called me a loser earlier!! i was outraged! i know he never meant it but still!" you began, slightly sarcastically, as you weren’t actually offended by the title

"what? why?" his tone was more inquisitive than usual, maybe because it was his fellow spetznaz member committing such atrocities, or because he wasn't his usual self that day for some odd reason. you appreciated the fact that he was definitely listen though. despite this, your response of “i dunno” didn’t answer his question well.

“Я не думаю, что ты неудачник, я думаю, ты довольно крут, ты знаешь” (i don’t think you’re a loser, i think you’re pretty cool, you know)

you feel your cheeks radiate a subtle warmth as you raise your eyebrows slightly in surprise at his sweet yet unexpected comment. “спасибо, максим, хотя если я крут, то какой ты?! ahа” (thanks maxim, but if i’m cool then what does that make you? aha) your response made his ears go red and his eyes widen, which you could see through the gap in his mask. maxims eyes being ever so slightly more exposed to the sunlight leaking into the helicopter. his eyes met yours and a simple smile was exchanged, one that would be the start of something

[bbina]

bbibbi… i’m going to cry… no… i’m actually tearing up 🥲 i can’t believe that btl is over now 😩 like… time goes so fast huh? i’ve never been this invested in an smau before, btl is just THAT smau 😭💗💗💗 nothing can EVER top it i’m telling you 😊 but fr, this smau is so beautiful, the characters, the plot, the chats, the angst, literally EVERYTHING 😩 i’m going to miss waiting for a new btl chapter to be released everyday ☹️ i’m going to miss reading the cuteness, the angst, the silliness, the lovey dovey-ness ☹️ i’m going to miss my silly boys and my silly girl silly-ing around together ☹️ i’m going to miss cute loser boy wonbin who’s just so in love with his girlfriend y/n ☹️ i’m going to miss pretty lover girl y/n who was kinda late to realising her feelings for wonbin ☹️ i’m going to miss snitch shotaro who snitched to the others that wonbin went to ulsan ☹️ i’m going to miss overprotective older brother eunseok who now has a GIRLFRIEND??? HELLO??? ☹️ i’m going to miss confused giant sungchan who was blamed by y/n for wonbin leaving her ☹️ i’m going to miss bubble boy seunghan who’s literally the president of the ynbin nation ☹️ i’m going to miss puffy hair sohee who’s a part of the ynbin nation and is just a cutie patootie ☹️ and i’m going to miss sir anton who SOME people tried to make second lead ☹️ fuck… I’M GOING TO MISS BTL SO MUCH 😩 okay but i can always just reread it so 🤭 i just want to be dramatic 😭 i can’t believe that i actually teared up… like… wtf??? bbibbi… THANK YOU for writing this AWESOME smau 😩 i love your cute, smart, big brain that is full of wonderful ideas SO MUCH 💗💗💗 believe me when i say this but btl is the first ever smau that i fell in love with 😘 everything about btl was so homely and comforting, i felt so much at ease whenever i used to read the chapters 😩 AND i remember ranting to my cousin when ynbin had that HUGE fallout 😭 babe you had me stressing and shit 😩 and i’m so happy with the amount of LOVE and APPRECIATION that btl has received 🥰 #DESERVED 💗💗💗 reading other anons asks about btl made me so giddy and happy 😊 the highlights of this journey HAS to be ynbin’s CRAZY fallout and the ynton shippers 😩 WHERE DID THE YNTON SHIPPERS COME FROM??? they just spawned out of nowhere 😭 the b in btl stands for BEST and i’m 100% sure that other anons will agree with me 😊 i’m actually going to reread it… LIKE I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT IT’S OVER NOW??? WTF??? heart: broken 💔💔💔 soul: shattered 💔💔💔 bbibbi 😭 i’m actually going crazy… 😐 btl ending means that seunghan’s going to come back 😊 idk what i’m saying i’m just rambling now 😩 btl… btl… BTL… ☹️ okay but the one year skip fucking caused my heart to palpitate 😭 UGH 😩 i love you btl 💗💗💗 SO MUCH 💗💗💗 FOREVER 💗💗💗 AND ALWAYS 💗💗💗

- 🦌

i jus realized bbibbi is an iu song lmfao ANYWAY-

it's been over 12 hours and i still can't believe its over :( i miss them already 😔 ive been answering asks and i was like "fuck im gonna update again" BUT WHATS THERE TO UPDATE CHAT 💔 not too sure about anything can top it... im lowkey liking the plot of wb's second smau thats in the works.. not gonna say much cus its not done yet 🫣

mane im already missing backstreet boys dumb shenanigans mixed with wonbin's loser self yearning for yn to like him back bc shes a dummy!! remember when eunseok had to literally knock some sense into her ass.. sigh they were so cute and funny... esp when the boys took it upon themselves to fight the devil (ynbin) themselves like get u friends who bridge you to the person who's right for u!!!

u guys do tell me that u guys feel like ur literally part of the friend group 😭 thats honestly kinda cute... means i nailed what its like to be with friends *sigh* LMFAO

the ynbin breakup will still continue to haunt yall huh 😭 the way it got yall talking to ur irls about it (some anons mentioned they were talking abt it to their own friends LMFAOOOOOOOO) crazy ass plot..

THE LOVE BTL GETS IS SO HEARTWARMING I LOVE THAT YOU GUYS RLLY LOVE THIS FIC THE WAY I LOVE IT HUSDHSKHFSDJFHKSD will never get tired of saying that shit fr

NTM ON THE YNTON SHIPPERS LIKE WHERE DID U GUYS PULL THAT ONE OUT OF UR ASSES?????? there was fr a little anon group dedicated on sending asks about ynton becoming canon LIKE HUUUH ... the highlight for me was the poll 😭 maybe i'll do more plot polls more often just to see everyone spiral and think outside the box 😭

idk why i have a strong gut feel hani is coming around soon especially whats going down on the kpop world... KINGHAN COMEBACK 2024

the one year timeskip just to show that they've come a full circle teeheeeeee

thank you so much for reading bambi anon!!!! i rlly rlly rlly LOVED waiting for ur thoughts !! thank you sosososo much for always taking ur time of day to read and share!! <3 LUV YEW

[ode2rin]

us again 🙁🙁🙁🙁 it was actually so good i’m so glad you decided to pick it up again THANK YOU FOR SHARING TJAT WITH US DONT EVER LEAVE PLSKDJFB

Anyway i will send a long ask about quotes i liked because i need to express my awe and support and compliment U because omg. what.

After all, everything here in this town is about you and him. 

i like how you decided to set it in a town instead of just saying smth like city or whatever, because i find it more like … romantic? and YES the way we rot in his memories he’s never getting rid of us we are his childhood and literally 19 years of his life t-t THE OTHER HALF OF HIS HEART (like u said).

And deep down, he didn’t want to believe it either – until that day you decided not to show up when you promised you would.

OUCH. the paragraphs before this one too i love the way you portrayed his coping to himself and how much of an effect we had on him 😭😭 at first i was like wrf i can’t believe we ghosted him like that but after reading the letter i would definitely do the exact same thing i’m ngl 😭😭

A thousand emotions danced in his eyes, each one a testament to the love that once blossomed between you.

i love it when they can’t ever forget about us. the use of the word blossom makes it seem like such a temporary thing and it just screams highschool romance because flowers don’t blossom often (like what… once a year or smth???) and that’s like saying our love blossomed and was peak in the past and idk what i’m saying but i hope yk what i’m saying and i hope i’m not misinterpreting ur work LOL but i just had to sauce this one in here too

In this universe, you're just some two ghosts standing in the place of you and him, haunted by the memories of what once was while trying to remember what it feels to have a heartbeat.

the alternate universe comparison I EAT IT UP ALWAYS BUT IVE NEVER SEEN ANYONE USE GHOST BEFORE TO DESCRIBE IT AND IM JUST LIKE WHAT YOURE SO SMART !!! HAUNTED BY MEMORIES TOO?? MIMI IS SO BIG BRAIN

while you share a kiss as greedy and fiery as the sea’s yearning for the moon.

the sea’s yearning for the moon that’s all.

I would’ve traded all my tomorrows for just one yesterday with you.

now this is genius. traded the tomorrows aka trading your entire future and dream and careers just for one moment in your fleeting highschool teenage romance with sae that was left in the past ……. 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

so yeah. i love your writing lots and i’m glad we’re moots<3 thank you mimi!!!!! and thanks for listening to my little rant tehe

yumi. YUMI. i would really really really love to hug you right now like this INSTANT (ಥ﹏ಥ)

the fact that you even took the time to go over the whole fic (ik it's a lot bit ._.) is enough to make me go ➡️ o(〒﹏〒)o btw i can't even start to articulate better word to tell you how thankful i am. YOU CAN HAVE A HUNDRED MANGOES FROM ME PLEASE 🥭

let me go over your fave quotes (that made my heart go swell btw wdym i have quotes now) AAAAAAA

➼ the small town !! let me telle you something, i actually love small town romance like a not so normal amount, it's prolly included in my top 5 tropes pls. i just love it when the other leaves and the other stays and by fate, they just meet again to rekindle what was once their shared memories. childhood friends to lovers is nice but if it's small town? NOM NOM I LOVE IT i've always wanted to try writing it and who's a better choice to try than our mr. i went to spain right here (even if it's not fullblown focus on that trope..)

➼ THE LETTER AHSJKAJSHAJ ngl, i would also do the same thing .. i just think sae is the kind to hold grudges lmao he definitely held MASSIVE hatred for not showing up

➼ i like using the word blossom in describing past love sometimes because (1) i love flowers, (2) it's a one time thing aka seasonal and it fits characs that yknow will fall in love once or twice in their whole life and that's it, (3) and lastly, it's temporary and it passes like time.. I LOVE YOU YUMI YOU REALLY GET ME I'M GIVING YOU SMOOCHES RN

➼ two ghost is actually a song !! i love that song so much (rumor has it that it's about taylor swift since she's harry's ex 👀) i've been listening to it and got inspired by the lyrics <3

➼ there's this children bed time story my friend told me abt that the reason why there are high tides is bec of a prince imprisoned in the sea and the moon was actually a goddess that he got punished for loving? and everytime the tide is high it means he's trying to reach for the goddess I CAN'T REMEMBER BUT THAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND IT and i decided to use it bec damn that story is the definition of yearning come on..

➼ now that line.. i was making pancakes when i thought of that oh my god and i reached out to the nearest paper i could find bec what if it leaves my mind 😭 ngl i love love love that :(

it's ME who should be glad 🫂 i'm glad i wrote make you mine bec it led u to MEEEEEEEE (iirc we became moots bec of it :>)

[utterdrip]

ghbfjdnfbgk uwu hi, same anon. again. but if you do get freecam working, highly HIGHLY recommend taking a look at his graveyard scene for the fist clenching and restless fingers bc it’s soooooo. like he starts the scene talking about cazador and his hands just keep clenching and unclenching like he’s trying to calm himself down, but he completely stops when he turns to tav and tells them he doesn’t want to lose them. you can fully see him relax when he switches from talking about the past to talking about the future. i saved footage of it just to look back at bc it’s the most obvious shift i could find 😭😭

HI friendo welcome back yes lovely lovely wren was able to help me out and i got it working again!!!

and Thank You for the tip i DEFINITELY SHALL but do u wanna know smth funny and wild

i was literally thinking like. yesterday or smth about how much i loved the Darcy Hand Flex from the 2005 P&P and how simple that gesture was to indicate like discomfort mixed with yearning. an odd dichotomy of feelings not fully realized and uh what im sayingnis

the beautiful beautiful way the writers and creators were able to like. incorporate such a minute detail that the camera DOESNT EVEN FOCUS ON but smth that is like. a constant for his character. and an obvious shift and change depending on the topic and auauahsvshj

[taegularities]

Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍